She said: Show me the world that's inside your head Tell me your secrets of life and death, and your one regret
FIRST OF ALL. I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON THIS SINCE (checks calendar) the day i finished the 3.5 trailblaze continuation. that was last September. this monster has genuinely taken up residence in my brain for a year and I ended up not even publishing at least 4K words from the draft that I had ☠️
(fun fact: you can see me spiralling into despair as I struggled with this fic on bsky)
The second half of this fic is probably going to be repurposed into a separate work of its own because I am not done lovemailing Jiaoqiu and I may never be. In any case, this fic alone occupies 4 different documents in my Gdrive because I could not stop it from growing out of control multiple times. By the time August 21 rolled around (Jiaoqiu’s banner anniversary & my mental deadline for this) I was still not done and nowhere satisfied with what I had, so I decided fuck it we ball and went with half of the intended story instead 😂
Anyway, in case you didn’t already know I am severely ill with brainrot for the Yaoqing trio (as though my posting history was not proof enough…?) and so I have packed many many many thoughts and feelings about their relationship dynamic into this fic, imperfect and incomplete though it is 🥲